I should just start every blog with ... "This morning the phone rang..."
In my last blog I announced that we had been asked to consider adopting K8 & K9's little sister...as if I needed to consider it...as if I could say no. We have literally just been waiting for the phone call that we knew in our hearts was inevitable. And when that call came...I had accidentally left my iPhone at home. So I had a missed call at 4 pm last night and a voice mail saying "I wanted to talk to you about the baby sister...call me." Of course, I didn't get home until 6 pm so there was no way I was going to catch the social worker at work anymore! I called anyway and left a message promising I would glue my phone to my hand so I could take her call at any time today. Robert and the kids are constantly harassing me about losing my phone. Maybe they are right and I should be better at keeping track of it... But in my defense, I really do TRY, but I am kind of busy.
This morning the phone rang at 8:16 am. I glanced at the incoming number and my heart skipped a beat. There was no doubt in my mind who it was or what she would say. And yet, her simple question, "How do you feel about being a mom of 10 kids?" dropped me to my knees and reduced me to tears.
How do I feel? Sad, happy, angry, overwhelmed and excited. All at the same time. I am sad that K10 is losing another family. I am happy that she is regaining her biological siblings. I am angry that life is such that her previous placement couldn't make it work. I am overwhelmed as I look around my house at the chaos of laundry, dishes and toys that have piled around me in the past 3 weeks... threatening to consume us. But mostly I am excited. Never will my house be empty of the sound of children's laughter, I swear it gives me energy. Ha! Disney's Monsters Inc suddenly comes to mind. Life is just better when you can share it with the joys and wonder of exploring the world though the eyes of a child.